Archive for September, 2007

“creation as self expression dwarfs possession”

Thursday, September 20th, 2007

I really identify with that. It’s a quote, like one of the many excellently selected in the fourhourworkweek book someplace. It’s a good starting point for inspecting how does one define success in life?

While I’m a sucker for innovative design, and always invest in the best (frequently lustable) tools that amplify my creative capacity. Material possession has never really been that important to me. While not Conventional Rich status symbols,I’ve tried possession, a little: I have owned high end audio, high end PC’s, $200K projectors out of flight simulators, high end bicycles. I have designed jewelry and fashion, lived in nice places, minutes from the beach. All are cool, but in the end, they fade into the background of day to day life quickly.

Part of this has come from moving 26 times (I’m 33), initially due to military parents, and then later because it’s fun. I’m constantly having to evaluate if I really want to keep stuff, get rid of it. I have a Quality of Life calculation QOLC I’ll share in the future, I use to help evaluate both strategize purchases and what I get rid of. Repeated following it has made it easy to gain increased freedom while others my age have chosen paths to invest in houses or heavy businesses. Which is my biggest complaint about physical goods they are too often anchors and excuses not to move, often from unhappy life’s. Big brick and mortar businesses are big mouths to feed, that are always hungry. Just tonight I was talking with the CTO/friend and telling him about the upcoming month-long trip, and the concept of going away for several weeks was almost unfathomable to him.

Critical thinking also helps combat materialism as well, most of what is accepted as status symbols are just manufactured. by advertising, a game you can avoid, or take advantage of if you know the strategies. First up is limiting exposure to mass-media. Tivo it if you must. A simple example: Ever really wanted to see a movie? all the trailers, buzz, billboards but just never got around to it due to getting busy and then in six months staring at it on the movie shelf, you realize you’d rather do something else..ooh like that other movie coming out!

Very few things have lasting intrinsic value, almost anything can and has been manipulated (which of course people are paid to do), and pretty much everything in the future will be directly and quickly copyable. Technology changes pretty much everthing. Paper used to be handmade reserved for the rich, now it’s used for every bodily fluid for cents. Today Rapid prototyping means that any physical you can conceive of that can be modelled, can be made in hours, and in turn China can mass manufacturein days. 10-50 years from now Kinkos will copy or print out your sweater, china, radio just as easy as they do color printouts, molecule by molecule. Drop by a pawn shop sometime, take a look at the various rings on discount per carat then go to a new jewelry store and compare the difference. Now take a look at manufactured diamond costs. Autos are fun too. I get a smile everytime I watch the Arial Atom video, and geek out when I hear it’s available in electric. and like most electric cars built for performance cost 1/3-1/4 the status symbol. “Classic Cars” values have plummetted as the people interested in collecting them have largely been passing on.

Without material possession what’s left? This actually gets into filling the void, at some point once you’ve gotten freedom in your Time, $ and Mobility, you’re left with largely what emotions do you like? and how do you achieve them in a repeatable sustainable way?

Tim apparently likes thrill, which I can totally respect. I’ve tried thrill I can recommend it, but in small doses: I have done 100kilometer bicycle races, 50mph on a bicycle down windy gravelly edges roads…wearing nothing but cycling gear and 2″ of rubber contacting the asphault . I have driven F1 race cars 160mph, flown acrobatic gliders, flown in acrobatic aircraft, performed solo music in front of a hundred, open-mic with lots of tech gear with minimal setup/breakdown numerous times, conducted bands in front of 3000 people, put on art shows, given speeches for 300. Spun fire, Performed improv comedy, improv jazz, dixie land jazz. Helped put on a few conferences etc.

I have some friends that really get into gameplay, and unfortunately for myself, I just can’t get into them for more than 10 minutes. But to contrast,  one of the reasons I love programming as it’s the same puzzles but the rewards let me create easier and faster. For myself I really get into the high of creativity and flow. The joy of sitting with a pen and paper doodling , or in the music studio, or dancing with poi, or solving some creative problem solving is a physical manifestation of dreams.

At the end if you have a good memory, only so much truly novelty one can buy and retain. In a day there is can only eat so much, sleep in one place, listen to so many hours of music. So one has to find something beyond the immediate physical. For an innovator like myself, constantly seeing ways to make things better, there is only so much of the world that I can buy as good as my own vision for myself…thus it falls on ones own shoulders to fill the gaps, and it’s fun! and some of the best highs I’ve had. One of the reasons I keep many entrepreneurs and innovators and creative types, as close friends is we all see the world as playdough…malleable and negotiable, that others consider cast in stone.

MentalTools: The Time Corridor

Saturday, September 15th, 2007

To reach goals, often requires changing behavior. Behavior change is 1) being aware of the choices rather than being on autopilot, 2) and making better choices than the ones we make (often better framing and measuring the costs and benefits). 3) Usually giving up something along the way. Just as you can’t park a car in a full garage, you can’t move in your own life until there is space to move.

One of the visualization exercises that helps me make better decisions I call the Time Corridor. It’s a variation of Timelining projected forward and Timeline Therapy.

Claudia in a corridor

Like Claudia . Imagine being in one or those airport or funhouse parrallel mirror and getting the neverending images of you…or the back of your head.

Imagine that each reflection of you is a projection of who you are looking back at yourself at different points in time ahead of where you are right now. Say 1 minute, 10 minutes, 1 hr, 1day, 1 week, 1 month, 1year, 10 years. Take some decision in your life you are facing, ask the mirror choir one by one what they think looking back on you today. Strike up a conversation with those future yous to get to know them better.

Question: “Should I drink that soda?”

  • 10minute: Totally! I wanna pony too!
  • 1 day: which soda?
  • 1 year: what soda? no probably not, or at least maybe diet the diet version, at least I didn’t make a big impact on my life, but I do remember that concert we went t.
  • 10 years: You expect me to remember that crap? beside soda is evuhl

Everything counts in large amounts, and this is where you can gain leverage in your decisions. Okay, then measure the costs:

  • 10 minutes: 150 calories :$1
  • 1 day: 2 sodas 300 calories :$2
  • 1 week: 14 sodas, 2100 empty calories, $14, 2 days of caffeine jitters, 2 days of caffiene withdrawal headaches .
  • 1 year : 728 sodas, 109200 empty calories, $728, potentially 25 pounds of fat, $200o in dental work.

Then see what *else* you could do with the time and money if you opted not to do that.

  • 1 week: 14 cans of soda or one new dinner/movie out on the town every week.
  • 1 year: a downpayment on a new car, a computer, a month trip abroad?

Now put the costs and alternatives in one hand of each projection then ask ” which would you rather have?”.   Swallow the bullet and recognize that just as you probably don’t remember the sitcom or website you viewed last night, you won’t really dwell on the choice, and will be building discipline as a side benefit. This approach can be used for all sorts of questions: jobs, move, relationships.

It’s also useful for coping. There are no unreaslistic goals just unrealistic timeframes. At the moment it’s useful as I prepare for a month trip I have a large amount of commitments to wrap up, projecting forward a month I recognize that it’s all doable within that time period. That window of closure makes the sacrifices like not seeing my girlfriend, movies, dancing for 2 weeks worth it.

Btw, most 12 step programs and therapies are simply about graduated substitutions. Deep seated beaviors like addiction are impossible to wean without leverage, and thus suitable alternatives, and the process of creating them be fun. While I was hooked heavily on soda in high school (unlimited drinks for pizza delivery), one suitable replacement was making my own at home. Some simple variations are selzter water + 20 calories of agave + lemon + vanilla, all the fizz low calories and 100% natural. And home made ginger ale.

Just say no to (becoming) middle management.

Friday, September 14th, 2007

New Rich friends don’t let New Rich desiring friends become middle managers ;) It’s nice to see that the new workforce are recognizing the true costs as well:

http://www.usatoday.com/money/workplace/2007-08-12-no-manage_N.htm?csp=34

Middle management is a vital aspect to most corporations existance, perhaps even as vital as food..which is less metaphorical than I’d like. Middle managers are the grist between the upper management + sales + marketing rock and the engineering + creative millstone. They are burdened with all the accountability, yet minimal control and knowledge. This is an unworkable situation as getting to the moon only armed with ducktape. The soul-crushing damage is easy to spot in startup companies as they grow, and in creative type agencies where projects lifecycles mimic corporations on fast forward. Looked at over time the company org chart looks like a stream, where the water near the edges is almost standing still, and the rapids churning out people in the middle. In some projects companies, I’ve seen them turnover through 3 project managers, and or completely burn out people in less than a year!  I realize that work environments can have predator/prey like aspects, but turning excited passionate people committed to making brilliant projects to stressed defensive working insane hours on salary is right up there with clubbing baby seals on my list of fun-time activities to watch or participate in.

To compound problems working is an addition easy to get hooked to, the unlimited hits of a full inbox saying “your important!”, they are so busy working they don’t have time to realize the true costs, until they stumble and gain perspective. Then pehaps they’d decide they’d rather bicycle across the world, and not come back.

The allure of better salary, importance and upgrades seem like glistening gold, but are all typically misleading. Salary at first blush seems a great deal, until they actually find out what the per hour rate is. $70K/70hrs a week is $20 pre-tax. Add in the hidden costs of premature aging, lack of sleep, phone calls, stress, lack of holidays, the true cost might be even in the negative ;)

Upgrade paths are also misleading, there are very few middle managers I’ve met who actually make it higher in the food chain (without jumping ship), or who are actually happier once they get there, this is especially true for engineers and creative types who love building things asked to build and create better people as a good manager should like doing first.

Pocketing the office, travelling for real, and virtualizing everything else…

Friday, September 7th, 2007

Part of the fun about gaining independence is being able to mix travel and work and play in increasingly flexible proportions, who says you have to work from 9-5 at a specific address?   But with the good comes the law of entropy: Stuff breaks!  The more you move, the more things collide… get lost, broken or stolen.  The more you have the more stuff can go wrong.  If this happens to be your beloved ipod, smartphone, or laptop with all your data this can put a serious damper in your …month, or quarter if it all happens at once.  Thankfully, working in the information age we don’t have the same misery as if everything was lost in a fire, earthquake or flood, thanks to the ability of bits to be duplicated, and a global network of cheap data storage, and easy backup.

Synch Happens

This trend started for me about 2 years ago I had 3 PC’s (a notebook, a desktop and a tablet PC), about 7 harddrives, then I did a cost analysis and found that I was spending a fair amount of time just maintaining them (somehow upgrades are never simple as they seem), getting them all internet access, the endless software updates (not just windows), and a surprising one for me: a lionshare getting software to synch back and forth, remembering what has changed, what was on which drive on which machine etc. This is the hidden price of mobility: Synch happens. There are many tools for synchronizing files between machines, some even built into windows, all of them have significant overhead.

Since I do my own IT work I have been out looking for ways to reduce the time I spend maintaining my machines and reduce synching. The answer is pretty simple ruthlessly eliminate devices based on what you are using them for, and reevaluate the true costs of things. I had a desktop I was using as a file server and a movie watching and home automation. Almost all of these are barely used, the 3 machine gigabit network was cool but still was a synch. The movies I could just as easily watch from my laptop, in the end I really just wanted my data.

The desktop with 5 of the 7 drives, filling it’s tower and many cords inflated it’s importance. Since it was an organic growth I never bothered to reinvestigate it’s true worth,  though the cognitive one was easy to spot: 5 drives ranging from 120 to 400GB is a lot to manage! one was temp the other installs, backups of the notebook and laptop drives, the other projects the other 2 music, photo albums that eventually grew so large they couldn’t fit on just one. One one hand a 200GB drive seems like a lot of data, and at the time you bought it for say $200 it was.  But the constant drain of minutes trying to shuffle files to fit on mostly filled drives and remember where things are adds up quickly which if your hourly rate is even $15 adds up to it’s worth quickly….a NEW 200GB drive is about $45. Sadly you can’t just add new drives indefinately, you run out of room (new case $130) and the powersupply can’t handle it ($100-300).  Compare this to a  Hitachi 1TB External drive can be had for around $300 which in my case could fit ALL of the drives in one, and eliminate one PC and related upgrades in the process. It’s book sized small enough to fit easily into a bag…if one dared.

The ends goal for me is one laptop and one PDA/smartphone and something to draw on.  Since I realized a few years ago that laptops mobility outweigh the cost benefits of assembling a desktop I went to a laptop as my primary machine, and haven’t regretted the decision.  As a student in college saving $20-$200 dollars was a big deal and assembling a PC from scratch made sense.  Countless hours of beating against hardware incompatibilities has taught me other wise. Upgrade paths are never as great as they are cracked up to be, as you are battling Moore’s law. A Dual processor won’t be faster than a single processor 2-3 years later, and the various memory, harddrive, power interfaces shift enough that it may as well be a new machine. Opening the case up things start breaking.

So now I have an Dell Latitude I got off ebay for about $1K, the docking station ($40) which allows for a PCI expansion slot, in which I put a nvidia multimonitor card ($50) bringing it up to 4 20″ monitors…the set also cost about $1200 from TigerDirect.com Christmas of 2006. It’s pretty much the best of both worlds for me, portability and massive workspace when home. I have a few high end audio cards (that are also mobile). So I’m not really missing much.  If I played games I think that consoles and renting the cartridges are still probably the best way to go.

Go West Young Man

Since I have basically just this laptop,  I’m about to go on the road for a full month visiting Chicago and Hawaii with my girlfriend. I’ve been working on  reducing this single point of failure.   The 1TB drive has worked out well, and getting everything backed up to the web as I aim to take as little gear with me. Between Amazon’s S3 and globat.net’s cheap hosting it’s very easy to backup pretty much everything I ever have done digitally in multiple places, strongly encrypted, for well under $200 a year. Given the massive amount of digital photos, work, (around 900GB) I’ve done this is cheap insurance.

I’ve had the unfortunate ‘benefit’ of having a few harddrives and a laptop fail in the last few years, which thanks to backups  no important data was lost, but buying a new machine requires reinstalling everything, which allowed me to measure the time it takes to get back up to speed from ground zero.  Around  2 weeks! takes to get all the development tools utilities downloaded, licensesd and setup properly.  Backups generally don’t what you want as all the hardware has changed, and or the new machine has a faster bigger harddrive, it’s not as easy to just drop in and go.

 Virtualization
As such I’m starting to virtualize my machines, meaning running all applications in a virtual PC, which with processors including native virtualization commands is only 4% overhead from the normal machine in many cases. Compared to the week I spend getting setup, the inevitability of having something fail again, having the ability to backup is an easy sell. In some cases the same virtual machine images I’m working on will be the same I upload to Amazon to create highly scalable innovative web apps, or send to others to work on.

This is far different from traditional backups, as the VM image is platform independent, it can be run on Linux, OSX, XP, Vista on different hardware configurations as easily as moving a spreadhsheet file from machine to machine.  To boot almost any operating system can be virtualized, which is great for those of us doing cross platform development and testing.

The latest version of VMWare “ACE’ can run the virtual machine images directly off a thumbdrive, and Flash drives are big and cheap enough for most development needs I’m doing. So in my case if my machine were to die, get stolen or blowup in my travels I could get the complicated development environment running within minutes on any new machine/OS.   So it’s even possible to take all the entire machine with you in your pocket and leave the PC behind if you know your not going to work on the road and have access to a PC/Mac wherever you are going.

Smallest 2GB flash drive I’ve found
http://www.edgetechcorp.com/digital-media/sd-card-flash-drive.asp $60

Smallest 4GB flash drive (I’ve found)
http://www.sony.net/Products/Media/Microvault/usm-h.html
around $60   http://kaanza.com/Shopping/ProductDetail.asp?Productid=400337

or standard sized 4GB if you want an integrated  finger reader for $130
http://www.edgetechcorp.com/usb-flash-drives/biometric-flash-drive.asp

Smallest USB reciever on a notebook mouse.
http://www.everythingusb.com/logitech_vx_nano_notebook_mouse_13017.html
Also checkout the shrinking of the wireless reciever at the bottom:
http://www.logitech.com/index.cfm/mice_pointers/mice/devices/3271&cl=us,en